The Horror of Horrors

Ok finally after much anticipation of the forthcoming exams, its here. Tomorrow somehow in 3 hours i will face the destruction of science in one seating… Haha( i thought that was funny) okok

Hmm i love genetics its fun, mayb somehow one day i mught venture in depth in this very field, mayb travel the world, collecting specimens, tracking their ancestors… ot would be cool then again mught be impractical for me since i come from a closed minded family who hardly allow me stay out past 10 pm, hmm mayb one day my dreams could come true…Jus mayb????

 

 Ok anyway the day prior to my big exam im having serious butterflies in the stomach, and this is totally disrupting my study timetable. Its past 2 hours that i have to have all the chapters covered but now im like 11 chapters behind.. Oh lord please god help me thru this….. hmmm life as a student is like crap man all the tension building up to this and then just like pfffftt it over!!! Sheesh

JoJo-A Little too Late

Come with me
Stay the night
Just say the words but boy it don’t feel right
What do ya expect me to say (You know it’s just too little too late)
You take my hand
And you say you’ve changed
But boy you know your begging don’t fool me
Because to you it’s just a game (You know it’s just too little too late)

So let me go now
‘Cause time has made me strong
I’m starting to move on
I’m gonna say this now
Your chance has come and gone
And you know…

[Chorus]
It’s just too little too late
A little too long
And I can’t wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it’s just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You’re just a good chase
So be real
It doesn’t matter anyway (You know it’s just too little too late)

Yeah yeaaahhh… It’s just too little too late… Mhmmm

[Verse 2]
I was young
And in love
I gave you everything
But it wasn’t enough
And now you wanna communicate (You know it’s just too little too late)
Go find someone else
And letting you go
I’m loving myself
You got a problem
But don’t come asking me for help
‘Cause you know…

[Chorus]
It’s just too little too late
A little too long
And I can’t wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it’s just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You’re just a good chase
So be real
It doesn’t matter anyway (You know it’s just too little too late)

[Bridge]
I can love with all of my heart, baby
I know I have so much to give (I have so much to give)
With a player like you I don’t have a prayer
That’s the way to live
Ohhhh… mmm nooo
It’s just too little too late
Yeaahhhh…

[Chorus]
It’s just too little too late
A little too long
And I can’t wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it’s just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You’re just a good chase
So be real
It doesn’t matter anyway (You know it’s just too little too late)

You know it’s just too little too late [2x]

[Chorus]
It’s just too little too late
A little too long
And I can’t wait
But you know all the right things to say (You know it’s just too little too late)
You say you dream of my face
But you don’t like me
You’re just a good chase
So be real
It doesn’t matter anyway (You know it’s just too little too late)

Emptiness

 

Suddenly the world doesnt seem all that great to me, flashbacks of my life try to bury me deeper into depression. Suddenly everything attacks my soul bringing down my very existence. Pain deals in ways that even i cant explain. 

Life in my shoes suddenly doenst seem so pretty anymore. Kept thinking about the past when i pretended in my own skin. Pretended to be made of stone, without feelings, without anger, just likeability….

Pretending just sucked out my energy, until i broke down, couldnt handle it anymore. It was more painful to be myself cause the wounds are exposed and it stings… When u bury the pain at least u had something to hide behind but not anymore. 

Im fed up with trying to please eveyone, apparently it doesnt benefit u anymore. It just hurts more and more. The way ppl perceive u, the way u look at urself in the mirror when u’re alone, the way u cry to sleep every night. 

I really dun understand why it is never easy for everything to be out in the open, where ppl can see u and judge u and u never having to care. Cause whats important is that u’re happy.Cause in the end u walk alone, no one stays with u. Not ur parents, nt ur family, nt ur soulmate, nt ur frens. In the end u will be alone..

So be prepared, live like u wan, dun let anyone tell u otherwise….

 

Thank God its Friday!

As i write todays blog, i feel like a new person starting a new chapter in my life! Yesterday after reading my monthly dose of Cleo i discovered an important piece of advice that just rang an alarm on my biological clock! in one excerpt of the mag there it was in bold screaming out to me as if to say ‘Read me im important’ (however i think this could be due to the hallucination that i was having since i havent had my morning tea).

Anyway, what it actually said was that u have to be confidence in your own skin and if u are not then ppl would not look at u the way u wan them too. Confidence plays a major role in your outlook.. As for me for the longest time i have had insecurities about my weight (as all women have) but today i realised hey this is who i am..

but dun get me wrong it doesnt mean i’ll just let myself loose and heck care, i mean who wouldnt wan a svelte figure right!! but thing is u shouldnt see ur body as a problem, accept it and work towards what u wan!! confidence ppl!!! its actually important!!!

there i said it!

in other news, well im fast getting bored at werk! all im waiting for is lunch and knock off times! Well if all goes well i should be having my first kick boxing class tmr but so far no news! wonder y!!!!

ok ok will update as soon as i started my lessons!!!

Celeb news: Apparently lindsay lohan was photographed on set giving her co star a blow-job… hard to imagine this is the same gal that was so innocently wanting her parents to get together in movie ‘parent trap’….

Oh Man

ok so i haven’t technically been updating (my fault) my blog!!! well all due now!

Ok so i had a pretty busy month what with intensive lessons at school and starting the new semester at werk! Well lets see i pretty much enjoy my job now that i’ve been to an outing with the officers on youth day and then a pretty bare it all meeting with the admin manager of the school.

Hmm i strongly feel theres more to come!! (yea!)

Ok in other news, i recently been moved up to physics lab where all i have to accompany me are physics stuff that i cant figure out how to use and an old beat up radio!!

well beats nothing i guess but peace and tranquility are more that what i can get!!

Ok since i stopped updating, nicole kidman got married, keven richardson got out of BSB, linday lohan is still losing weight, paris hilton is making music and my favorite news is that my best duo is coming back for a new movie!!!

SANDRA bULLOCK & KEANU REEVES IN LAKE HOUSE

I have never been happier, i have to catch the movie by all means!

well i gtg now but i shall be back real soon(Promise)

Toodles!!!!