THE CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS

Been busy this weekend of holiday studying for my protein discovery and analysis module… Putting a rather dim light onto the fact that i cant really be enjoying the countdown this year and a few other parties that i’ve been invited to. though i do miss them i really can’t make it do to the exam stress.. so to everyone who has aked me out im sorry…

Mayb next year huh!! I feel like shit

To go Vegetarian or Not

Ok one thing i never understood is why do salads cost more than burger melas.. FOr example here in singapore, in KFC, the salad costs like $6 and the burger meals cost like only $5, what the hell is that?

I mean aren’t vegetables supposed to be cheaper? what are they made of pure silver?

Ok next question, since you know that all these burgers are fattening and bad whay are we still selling it? Just sell everything that is healthy la… Isnt that a choice? Then mayb we wont get sick so often, and complain abt being fat and all, and then mayb instead of wasting money on opening more clinics, doctors can devote their precious time to go do research on some incurable disease like AIDS right?

Why is it that it is just in fromt of our eyes and no one chooses to do a thing…

And dun give me the bullshit that bad food tastes so good or whatever ok, cause if they dun sell it then the temptation is gone…. And dun go all ‘you love ur chocolates dun you’ i love it yes, can i do without it, yes definately……

So in conclusion i just wanna say, this country is so bloody prejudice, everywhere you go all u see is fucking pork, why in hell can’t you just have one or mayb two restaurants having pork ah… just amke the rest all halal can… We muslims have such a limited food group ok… im really pissed off, its not like the chinese ppl cant eat halal food what!!!!

Everytime i go out with my chinese frens they always have to give in to me cause im the only muslim.. Pls la… Like it’s that hard….. I hate Singapore food!!!!

Charlotte’s Web

 

 I escaped my study prison to go watch Charlotte’s web yesterday with cher… And i have to say for a childrensy kind of movie i really liked it, the take home msg is so important i feel, to see the beauty in somone is not a gift everyone has. And amazingly all the pig did was to befriend a spider and inreturn he got a fren that kept her promise til her dying end..

Ok im nt asking all of u to make frens with spiders ok but what im actually saying is that it is important for us humans to see ppl be it young or old in the same light, without judgement is really a great thing. To hold no boundaries to friendship, we all need friends but if u can’t open ur heart, then mayb you are the one at the losing end…. God knows we all need frens like charlotte, one who helps without expecting anything in return.. But are we all like that? 

Take some time to reflect today…. Is there a charlotte in u? 

Its Been Awhile

 

Monday… I hate mondays.. The feeling in the morning where you drag urself to work thinking can’t i sleep in a little more… And then u wake up to realise u’re super late.. then u reach at work to find the principal sitting in the office, looking at his watch as you come in, only to have urself mumbling some excuse abt the bus… Yeah i hate mondays…

Today the N level results are out, but i dun give a damn… All im thinking is how much sleep can i get tonight…. Surely not enough to make me feel rested enough to wake up early tmr.. Ah…… i hate mondays….. THey are the start to a horrific week of shitloads….

Problrm no2: My exams are in a 2 weeks and i still haven mugged as hard yet… i need help, its like ok i will do it tmr, then when tmr comes, u say ala tmr can la… And till now….

Im disappointed… Who cares….

I mus be moody cause i didnt catch one tree hill episode this week whatever are the states thinking how can they keep lagging episodes.. super annoying…. 

Ok i will shut up now.. I hear footsteps behind me!! 

Leaving…

 

 

Here I am in this school, on this holiday season, propped in the teacher’s lounge reading this fabulous book. The title of the book is ‘Somebody Else’s Kids’ by Torey Hayden….

Essentially this is what happened when special education teacher Torey Hayden acquired “the class that created itself”. 
First came Boo, seven and severely autistic. Next came Lori, also seven, a victim of brain damage as a result of physical abuse by her dad. Third came Tomaso, ten, who had cared about people and caring had hurt him so much he was determined to hurt others and make them hate him. Finally came Claudia, the upper class, bright, achieving 12-year-old-sixth grader, who had to leave her private Catholic school when it was discovered she was pregnant. 

I know it sounds like a typical Sister Act movie but its not. This book isn’t about children who were problematic. They had problems yes, but somehow they showed it and were always willing to learn. That is what made the book so great. You see these children come up with wise anecdotes that as adults we long forgotten. An example would be like; things are never really perfect but inside you, you always see them as perfect. And that makes it beautiful.

The children, who are now in their 30s, are well into their lives, with the 2 girls married with 3 children each. It’s so heartwarming to see that whatever the teacher has done for them has made an impact on their lives.

One thing that stuck with me was when the teacher was fighting against the principal of the school regarding ht school curriculum, the principal asked the teacher what she wanted to achieve from the students and she replied ‘To make them humane, and strong enough to survive.”

I think that is extremely important because you can teach so much but at the end of the day, what the students learn are what they want to learn. But to teach them to be strong and humane are things that are gonna carry them through life itself. I think in every aspect you should be a person first then you are something else, be it a student, scientist, lawyer…. And so on.

Another point was the leaving part, when all the students had to leave the class at the end of the year, it was so hard to let go. Even just reading it made you feel so strongly about how you feared that what they learned may not be enough.. Somehow you just dint wanna let go… It’s so hard sometimes but u just had to do it..

Like me for example, I once asked this guy out and although he never said no, i kept banking on the fact that someday maybe he would and he never did. Sometimes you hang on to things that make you happy even if it’s just in your head, you feel like there might be a chance but u know it doesn’t always werk that way…

Its always scary to move on to new things, but you have to do it whether you like or not…

Thinking OUt Loud

 

De’ Intellectual One for a long time has been feeling super blue… Therefore in efforts to cheer herself up she has done major thinking… So without further ado.. Here goes…

• Ok Why is it that when you transport something by car, it’s called a shipment, but when you transport something by ship, it’s called cargo? 
  
•  If 7-11 is open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, why are there locks on the doors?
  
• Why are cigarettes sold in gas stations when smoking is prohibited there?
  
• Do you need a silencer if you are going to shoot a mime?
   
• Why did Sally sell seashells on the seashore when you can just pick them up anyway?
• Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?
• Why does the Easter bunny carry eggs? Rabbits don’t lay eggs.
• Why are elderly people often called “old people” but children are never called “new people”?
• What is a chickpea if it is neither a chick nor a pea?
• Isn’t it weird that if you rearange the word “teacher” you get “cheater”?
• If a pope goes to the bathroom, is it considered holy crap?
• How come they don’t add the time that we are in our mom’s to our age?
• If you take an oriental person and spin him around a few times, does he become disoriented?
• Why do the ABC song, Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, and Baa Baa Black Sheep all have the same tune?
• Why is it good to be a Daddy’s girl, but bad to be a Momma’s boy?
• If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?
• Why is the blackboard green?
• What do people in
  China call their good plates?
• Do vampires get AIDS?
• If you tell someone they are being judgmental aren’t you being judgmental yourself?
• What does OK actually mean?
• On a telephone, why does ABC start on the number 2 and not 1?
• Isn’t it scary that the word “therapist” is the same as the words “the” and “rapist” put together?
• Why do people, such as S.W.A.T or Seals wear the bulletproof vests where you can see them? Wouldn’t people aim for their head or crotch?

Hot Yoga & Dance

Last weekend had me sweating so bad!!! At yoga of course.. I realised something i’m nt a flexible person at all… I really need to stretch more.. The instructor being this nice indian young man waas so cheeky you couldn’t help but relish in the fact that he waas really proud of the best you could do… Even if you can’t touch your toes… Hahaha

Anway tonight we’re trying this new dance routine, called body jam.. i’ll update on how it goes…. I need more excercise.. Takes my mind of certain things….

 Oh yeah and another thing… Just when i thought i had it all figured out turns out even the ones u think can’t backstab you does it intentionally… But anywho i dun care cause i never trusted you in the first place..

Life is pretty sad when u cant trust no one but hey its safer this way…

Right??? Any personal experiences anyone??

“This year, I got everything I wanted and everything I wished for.. but, in a way, I lost even more.”

Are you lost…

 

“Charles Bukowski once wrote; ‘There will always be something to ruin our lives. It all depends on what or which finds us first. You’re always ripe and ready to be taken.’”

The fate that we live in is as such, it’s just when u think u’ve made it, u’ve done good, that something or someone comes to ruin it for you. And at that moment in your life u just feel like life itself is not worth it anymore. Somewhere along the line i learned not to care anymore. 

It;s just like when u fall in love with someone, the only to realise that u knew this relationship would never happen in the first place.. Or how you hope to build a relationship with someone knowing that that person is not into you at all. We all lose.. You may think you’ve won but the fact is u lose or u will lose in the end..

Cause as humans we are never satisfied with wat we have, we constantly need more, the more you have the more you want, as the saying goes..

Why? i dun know.. It’s probably progammed into our heads i reckon..

Should we happy with what we have? Is it possible? to be contented?….. Mayb…

I’ll let you know once i am…

Mayb that day will come watch for it…

Who are You???

 

 I know i spoke about marriage like a lot in this blog already, but u can’t blame a girl for having much opinions can you. Yesterday agood fren of mine asked me when i would be getting married, and my reply was mayb sooner than you think… And she looked at me astonished and said ‘really?’. i said yeah mayb, not by choice though but by constant pressure from the family.. And her reply to that was…’Hope you find what you’re looking for’.

That’s when i realised something, all through you life while growing up, you constantly find youself trying to define who you are, what kind of person u are becoming, are u a rocker, a punk alternative, a go getter, a yes man…. and so on..  And up to the point you get married you have probably gone through all the mentioned personas there are..

For me personally, i’ve been the quiet girl next door, to feisty, to jazz loving, to writer, to punk and now curently in artiste mode..(i’ve been drawing a lot lately!) Will publish when i think my drawings are good enough…. So what i started out to say was that, in realiy we dun wan to label ourselves jus as yet, but once u enter into the marriage kingdom you pretty much are just one king…..(The married!)

Who pretty much live in their own world and have important decisions and full of responsibilities.. So tell me again, why are people getting married???

Some you Give Away

You ever heard the expression ‘The best things in live are free. Well that expression is true. Every once in a while, people step up they rise above themselves sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes. It can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you can find hope in the words of children, in the bars of the song and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you’re lucky, if you’re the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.