The One where she wrote a Poem (or so we thought)

Ok so the reason for this double post is that the other day i was stuck in a room full of kids to invigilate a class for their term test and anyone who knows me enuf wld know that i hate hate hate……LOATHEEEEEEEEEE…..invigilation so therefore i wrote a nice little poem….

Ehhhh well…i should mention that i dun really have a knack for this kinda thing..it’s never been my territory but anywhos u would understand that i was stuck in the classroom for a good solid 2 hours…. so that explains what ur gonna read next… whatever it is…..

 

 

‘In a room full of kids,

Makes me want to weep

Realising that im sweating beads,

My dignity i have to keep…..

 

Couldnt hold my anticipation for

me to run out of this invigilation,

Alli do is stare them down and

Yet they look at me and frown…..

 

Deciding to keep my salary,

Peseverance was my key,

Just another hour i had left

For time was my theft….

 

And so it ended well it seemed,

Cause i had about enough just before i screamed

That time had finally reached

For my track to finally screech……

 

Erm… well i kinda did warn you *ahem*

The One with Money, money , money

Today i am a bit depressed, hmmph, thats an understatement considering i feel depressed most of the time… Okie so here i am depressed, as usual and today its not just a minor thing, its about money…..

Every month i earn a substantial amount of  it and everyday…. everyday, theres someway i find to spend it… regardless of what it is, new clothes, new shoes, new bag…yadda yadda yadda…. and i just realised yest after calculating my spending for 1 month, that i actually spent more then i had received…oh my… i am in deep shit… i mean i still haven paid my bills which are all coming in red this month… hmm i wonder if its cause of the festivities…irk…… And to add flame to my already burning black hole of a bank, i intended to buy a new phone tmrw…looks like thats nt gonna happen…. and my new watch… ahhhi have waited so long for you my dear swatch….

Okie so now i have 200 left in the bank and tmrw im going to town…. Oh god… Pls make pay day come faster then i can say, let’s try this new card….. Erk…………………….

The One with the little things that matter…

Do you ever just look out of your window and stare into a world you imagine is just perfect.No, not in wonderland perfect, but just perfect in your eyes, just like having someone you love, love you back, to get that promotion you dreamed of, get that tremendously it-gadget you just have to have or just something really simple like hope…..

I guess we all have…. we all wish that just once in our life, when the grass could be greener and everything would just fall into place. But  the truth is that we work really hard to get that something and its usually not what we get.

but yet somehow we learn to live through it, and we adjust and we carry on… from one thing to another… just hoping that just once what you wish for could just happen just like you dreamed it just perfectly…. and if it could just stay that away forever…then maybe….just maybe…it wont be that hard to hope…..

 

i do hope one day i can look past this post and just laugh at it and say, hey what the hell was i thinking? but i know better than that…. sometimes it just hurts thinking about stuff  but it makes me who i am, and who i am is someone im afraid is losing more than i ever bargained for… theres so many times i look back and just cant help but think maybe i could have done something a little better, gone a little further than maybe this wouldnt be that hard…

But all the ifs in the world couldnt turn this any other way…. i just wish…..no i just hope that one day…. just one day….. mayb i didnt have to feel this way anymore….

The One with My Sweetheart…

Today im about to tell you an epic love story between a girl and her fish…yeah i said it…… a fish…. You see for the longest time ever since a girl had come to a certain age when she needs/longs for a pet a normal pet like cat or hamster or rabbits, i have been pleading with the ruler(mum) on having one… But after much questions and tears later…. and much bargaining, the 4 four feet fishtank came together with 10 baby luo hans…. mind you this was 10 yrs back….

And since this 10 yrs, the fishes have come and gone, the pretty ones, the fast swimmers, the slackers the show offs…. but this story today is about a fish i met abt one year ago….

I remember vividly the day i met him after my return form down under(yes its male, and i know cause i know dun ask qns) and my first impression was…hey ‘gems’(short for gemuk-malay word for fat)….

and since then we developed a sorta ‘weird’ relationship. (i put the quotation marks on the weird cause its just not normal to have relationships with fish). You see ‘gems ‘ was funny. always hungry and ever ready to bite me as soon as i approached the tank, at time he even jumped just to catch my fingers as i load up his favourite meal of bloodworms….He somehow could sense when i was down and have that ‘i-emphasise-with-you-look’ and at times when i watch tv, i see him staring at the screen like he understands, he even wakes up just as im abt to step out to work cause thats when i feed him breakfast…

 

Anyway, you get the gist of it, we have a ‘relationship’. So its i\been really hard these few days to see what has happened to him, firstly, hes been really moody. he stay at the bottom of the tank all the time and he doesnt even fight back anymore not to mention jump. hes anorexic…. has not been eating at all and has white fungus thingys growing on him…. ahhh hes so sad… his eyes are so dull… anyways last weekend i cleaned his tank in hopes of recovery together with added medicinal stuff… still no change

 

so on Monday, i bought him a girlfriend, a same species of oscar fish but white in color, i told the fish selling guy to choose a female and he laughed at me… what the hell? anyway i dun care shes female and since i introduced them he look better but still kinda sick…. and also with the new medicine i h ope he gets well soon…. anyway i named the other fish oprah just cause oscar is boys name and oprah was the closest i could get too…

 

and also i bought 2 other guppys, and when i asked the aunty what species they were she said’pilot’…..and i waas like ‘pilot? what relly? who names a fish pilot’ and dhe replied ‘pirate’ and i said ‘pirate? what the hell?’

so after the same dialogue happened for a few seconds i name them each pilot and pirate…. well together with my angelfish theres five of them now… plus the tiny shrimps i bought for a live seafood experience…

So to conclude my epic story..which is neither here nor there…. i hope ‘gems’ gets well soon… i miss my buddy…..

 

PS: i have a life okie…just that its been real slow……

The One with the Scowls

It’s 18th day of the new year and im getting straight up on the horse… Started reading books again… good on me… And i took up swimming lessons…yea… bought new heels!Only thingy left is to get started on my resume…..

This was a great weekend, once which i enjoyed going out with famly just look look see see at mustafa centre….Oh snippet of conversation at the back seat of car…

Ishaq(age3): Is it muhamad mustafa is your father…

Nisa: No its a place we go buy things…

Ishaq: Oh…. Is it ur father shop?

Nisa…ermmm no…

Ishaq: Is it your father fren named mustafa?

Nisa:I not very sure….

Ishaq: *teeeet* pressing furiously on the birthmark on my foreheard….

Ishaq: hehehehe*squeal**

Nisa: *fuming silently*

Oh then we went to collect out shoes and as we waited for the mums in the car, we tried to identify as many cars as we could coming into the carpark..

 

Nisa: Ok who can tell me what car this is?

Ismail(age4): I noe i noe, Honda…..

Ishaq: Honda streaaaammmmmmmmm….

Nisa: eh how u all know…*impressed*

Nisa: ok ok next car…..

Ismail: eh why this car dun have chop?(logo)

Nisa; cause they took out the logo cause its not nice, but that a toyota…

Ismail: Eh whay u can know all the cars ah!!!

Nisa: oh cause i super smart….*hehe score*

Ismail: ohhhhhh

and then………

Nisa: Ishaq when u dah big u wan to buy what car?

Ishaq:mmmmm i wan to buy mercedes….

Nisa: wah…. can u take me to werk when u buy ur mercedes?

Ishaq: No *very quickly*

Ismail: never mind nisa i will take u!

Nisa: Okla ismail, if ishaq dun wan to take me then  i will pancitkan (burst) his tayar(tyres)…

Ishaq: hmphhhhh* hugs own body tightly with head lowered and angry frown plastered on face with an occasional growl heard*…

haha that was my saturday night and sunday was movie night… watched litttle women, dostana(hindi) and the shah rukh khan movie… erm still watching…  okie i should get back to that…..