The One who Shouldn’t be There

The morning is dull yet again, everthing seems like it was but just more pained. I cant seem to get out of bed like i used to, i’ve had dreams of you, and i wake up in the mid mornings figuring them out. It bothers me when i step out and all i can think of is you.

Just yesterday, walking along where we had our first official date was painful. Evertime i told myself to forget, id catch myself getting glimpses of how every simple thing u did bothered me. Like how u made me take that escalator before you, how u opened doors for me and how sometimes without realising you walk fast and slow down waiting for me to catch up..

The fact is that i miss you and even though i cant help it, i realise i must be the worlds biggest dork, cause i still cant see if i feel the way you do. Im still confused and i have a feeling thats just gonna be it. I wan it to stop.

I wan to stop missing you, seeing you, hearing you, thinking about you….Everthing i’d wish it would just stop.

The worst is when i catch my thoughts alone, then you just know some memory is gonna haunt you, and when you try ur best to divert, you become more focused and it strikes you so hard sometimes you wanna scream out loud.

It hurts everwhere….. *Make it stop*