The one with the Loss

Its another Wednesday… its been a week, and things are still not looking up. I dread to face life everyday, it feels like a repeated slap on the face, its like ‘are u sure u wan this?’ ever single day, every single second.

I wake up thinking how I’m gonna get through this, how I’m losing myself and still move on like as per normal. I look at every other thing around me and it just makes it harder, makes life harder.

I know i somehow have to get over this, cause with all things comes resilience, a chance, to grow stronger and bolder and better then before. But i still cant do it. Its never easy to lose, its never easy to get nothing out of something, it pains like you wouldn’t believe.

Been trying to get my mind out of it, but i still cant, everthing means something. I need more time, i need to get away, i need to live, i need to do things for me, i need me time…….but mostly i just need you.

Hey look at me all whiny…heh…. okie okie… must move on…. things will get better…*slumps forehead onto desk*