The One where I Cried n cried

I dont’t know what to say, its a cruel game we all play, anytime u back out, it leaves a scar more deeper then the previous one.  Shusshing out the noises in my head hurts, looking at your disappointed faces repeatedly hurts.

Its so easy to get swayed away with ur beliefs when you get so hurt. I wonder how you stay so strong, i cant do this anymore. every part of me hurts. i cant think straight, everytime i get reminded i well up. i cant forgive anymore, i cant trust anymore. i dun noe how to go on from this.

i wish you were here mama, i wan you to wipe away my tears and tell me everything will be allright. i wan u to assure me i can move on from this, that i dun need anybody more than myself. why arent u here when i need you the most.

You were the only one who listened to me, the one who made me feel better everytime, its so unfair i wan to see u now, i wan u to comfort me in my time of need.i wan a reason to why im still here and you’re not. You missed so much of me mama. U missed my proudest day and the day i could tell you how things would be better, i missed so much time with you. No one could replace you in my heart. You are my teacher, my mentor, you took every trouble with patience and care, you turned out each scream with a soft whisper, i used to have a temper of a lion before you taught me otherwise. I just wish i could be like you.

Im so proud to know someone like you. Know in my heart you mean more to me then you can imagine. I miss you.