The one where emotions are played

Mother has a new regime now, she tries really hard to make me feel better, really hard. I think she’s showing me she understands in the most atypical of ways, like how she bought me chocolates, she doesn’t usually let me eat them, but she bought a whole box of ferrero and told me to eat it. Now if that isn’t love, I don’t know what is.

 

On the other hand, the mood around the house is still a little somber, I wonder if I look like I’m going to cry to dad, will he buy me an iphone? (What? It could happen!!).

 

I am trying very hard to take this one day at a time crap, but it’s really hard, I find myself getting angry at unpredictable times. And now its becoming more of a routine arrangement of emotion, its like, first I get really angry like betrayed and the emotions fire up and I began planning all the evil things I could do to that person, and then second emotion is the sadness, I began to go thru reasons why such things could happen and why the world is so unfair and all that crap..(You know what I mean!) and then the depression state, where you just give up and think I cant do this anymore I just want out, I cant go on..

      

Somehow I think its gonna be awhile before things get normal…. By then, the façade beg